Maddie was feeling very alone and frustrated. She is my girl who will keep everything below the surface. She is usually very obedient and easy going. Of late things have been hard. I feel like she is at the bottom of the pile and everything else comes before her. We decided to let her go up to Lake Gaston a day early with her grandparents. She was so excited. I wish I had taken a picture but just picture this in your mind . . . She ran down the stairs grabbed her pink bag ran outside and sat on the edge of the driveway waiting for her grandparents. I brought out her pink car seat and she sat in it with her pink bag and waited for them to arrive. She was so eager to go it was delightful. I am grateful my Father in Heaven gave me that idea.
The Brother in my ward who talked about "Turning Weaknesses into Strengths," said this, "In preparation for this talk I looked up Perfect on Wikipedia it had definitions you would expect (having no flaws, etc.). Interestingly it also provided the Latin root of perfect which is "perficio" — "to finish", "to bring to an end." I found this interesting and comforting because the Latin root seems to say that perfection is where we are at the end of our path not where we are while we are on the path."
This was so freeing for me. I am not expected to reach perfection right now. It is at the end that I will receive it not now. I know I have learned this lesson before but I needed a reminder to be kinder to myself. The thought just occurred to me that the reason I was lead to these two talks, the brother in my ward and Bro. Wilcox," was because I was going to go through this time of emotions as I change my medication and I would need to be kind to myself and to others.
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