Sunday I took a walk with the kids up to the park. Elizabeth started to complain about how hard things are because we have such a big family and how if we wouldn't have had as many children as we do things would be so much easier for her. I remember feeling the same way when I was her age.
I said a silent prayer for the right words to say. We talked about how the person who makes her the most happy is Michael. She loves to be with him. The first person she wants to see in the morning is him, when she gets home from school he is the first to get a hug. She is really good at taking care of him and helping him with his needs. She is such a nurturer and will make a fantastic mom. If anyone needs a good babysitter I highly recommend her.
As we talked her heart was touched. I love it when as a mother you can reach into your child's soul and help sooth a trouble. I was grateful for that experience.
The Infinite Atonement (Illustrated Edition) by Tad R. Callistar
Pg. 205--"Among its many blessing, the Atonement brings peace . . .[but some] Saints are tougher on themselves than even the Savior might be."
I remember not too long ago criticizing myself for doing something wrong. Beating myself up for not being perfect. Then an idea came into my head about how I was a good person and how I do good things. I immediatly dismissed it as I have done for years in my life, thingking that I if I thought that I was too proud and not humble enough. Then the thought came racing into my mind, "That is Satan telling you that you are doing wrong, when you get a positive thought in your head that is me telling you how great you are and when you dismiss that thought you are dismissing your Heavenly Father. Just as Satan puts thoughts into your head about how much you have to improve, I put thoughts into your head to compliment you and build you up." This had never occured to me before. It was a breakthrough. These positive thoughts that I had been in the habit for years of dismissing were actually compliments from my Father in Heaven. He spoke the truth and will not lie to me. I am of worth and I am loved and I can do this.
Lexia,
ReplyDeleteI enjoy reading your blog. I thought I would share an experience I had yesterday. I had the opportunity to tell a friend about some of the things that Elder Anderson had said in Conference. It was a good conversation and I was happy as I left her. I hadn't been gone two minutes when I started thinking of everything I could have said and everything I should have said and wishing I was better at sharing the gospel--basically just putting myself down. I immediately remembered this blog post and realized that Satan was trying to pull me down. Thank you for writing so faithfully. You never know who may need your words.
Jan,
DeleteThank you so much for your comment. It was what I needed to hear. There are times when I wonder if this blog is really worth it or if it is doing any good. Usually when I have those feelings I get a letter from someone who says it has helped them. Thanks for being that someone.
I know the Lord loves you and is so happy with the choices you are making. God Bless You.