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Snow?Summer?/Depression and Therapy

We have had great snow days down here in North Carolina.  Michael loves snowmen and was so delighted when they built a giant snowman across the street.  He has had to go over everyday and touch it and then sing the snowman song. 

Taken 2 days ago

Yesterday we went over and touched the snowman with John Derek.  It was 70 degrees outside and beautiful.  The snowman is just a stump now but still there.  A little while later after lots of laughter and joyous squeels John Derek and Michael came to the back door looking like this:

Taken 1 day ago

Only in North Carolina can you play with a snowman and voluntarily get drenched by the water hose on the same day!!

My sister Christina has started a blog.  I love the story she shares.  I will call it "The Analogy of the Stairs."  I would encourage you to read it to know that you too are not alone. 

Yesterday I felt such confidence in my depression but by evening the black dog had taken over and I was overcome with his weight.  Derek and I decided that I will start seeing a therapist.  This was a difficult decision but I know it is the right one.  I realized that what was keeping me from seeing a therapist was pride.  I also realized that my pride is not worth the cost of my family, my husband, myself, and all those I love and will love. 

I have also felt that I am going through this trial to be able to help others and that I cannot help others down a difficult road unless I go all the way myself. 

My mentor has been extremely helpful and is cheering me on all the way.  She said, "It is only the bravest who are willing to go to therapy, to open their minds, hearts, eyes, and make sure they are living their best life . . . What is THRILLING about therapy, what you will see, is that every time we women improve, get clarity, so do our families, marriages, children, friendships.  It is a huge ripple effect."

I also take comfort is the words from Elder Holland:

Like a Broken Vessel

"If things continue to be debilitating, seek the advice of reputable people with certified training, professional skills, and good values. Be honest with them about your history and your struggles. Prayerfully and responsibly consider the counsel they give and the solutions they prescribe. If you had appendicitis, God would expect you to seek a priesthood blessing and get the best medical care available. So too with emotional disorders. Our Father in Heaven expects us to use all of the marvelous gifts He has provided in this glorious dispensation."

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