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Maddie is having her 5th birthday party this afternoon.  Samantha made cake pops and did a very good job.  Elizabeth was in charge of the streamers and could reach the high places that I could not.  I can't believe my daughter is taller than me.  And Maddison laid out her outfit that she will wear today.  What darling helpful girls I have. 

I feel so much better since I went to the Temple and talked to my mom.  I feel lighter, less stressed, I see the good, I am more positive, I am more patient with my children.  I do really need to go once a week.  Derek is there right now.  I am excited for him to feel the way I do.




2 Nephi 6:3

"Nevertheless, I speak unto you again; for I am desirous for the welfare of your souls. Yea, mine anxiety is great for you; and ye yourselves know that it ever has been. For"
Sometimes I think that I don't love my kids because I am not anxious about them and their future. Don't get me wrong I do have those times that I do worry because of the wickedness of this world but I think that instead I have great faith in my Heavenly Father. He gives me the peace and comfort I need. It is not a sign of me not loving my children enough but a sign that the Lord is helping me to have the peace that "It will all work out" and I don't need to have that anxiety about their future. Their future will be great.

I am realizing more and more the influence Satan has on my mind. Twisting good and making it bad. Convincing me that I don't love my kids because I am not overly concerned about them when instead it is because my Heavenly Father is giving me peace.

Satan is also convincing me that I am not doing enough and so I beat myself up trying to do more. But when I ask my Father what more I should do I am not given direction because He is pleased with what I am doing and He knows I am doing my best.

The more I learn, and read, and study, the more I realize how happy the Lord truly is with those of us who are trying to obey Him. He is not the one putting thoughts into our head of disappointment or frustration. That is not the kind of God He is. And as we as a righteous people realize this and push those thoughts out we will be happier and we will be praised by our Father and feel His love.

I look forward to the day when Satan can no longer influence me or the world. There will be so much good that gets done. What a great day that will be.
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