Motherhood/Embarrassed

Those who knew me as a teenager are stunned when I tell them that I have 5 children. As a teenager and young adult I lothed the idea of being a stay at home mom. IF I had any children it would be one or possibly two and I would not stay at home with them. The truth is that in my heart I knew that I would have more children and the thought of being a stay at home mom and "not doing anything with my life" scared me. I saw no worth in motherhood.

This morning I was reading someone's blog and they talked about how much they enjoy motherhood.

I love being a parent.

It's the toughest job I've ever had.

But it's also the sweetest

and most fulfilling.

I understand why "multiply and replenish the earth" was God's first commandment to our First Parents. (Where would we be without that admonishment?) It is the step, if we choose to take it, that can bring us the most joy, and bring us the most personal growth.

Parenthood is truly a blessing...not a curse!

After I read this I asked my Heavenly Father if I could feel this way. I immediately felt that right now I can only see motherhood through the filter of depression. But that someday I will feel that way. Someday the negitivity in my head will be gone and I will see life through the eyes of my Father in Heaven and my Savior and I will understand and feel the blessing of being a mother.

Mom and Michael at a family reunion in Fayettville. Michael threw up two times on the drive down, ruining his clothes. But as soon as he arrived he was a naked happy camper and the life of the party.

How grateful I am to a Father in Heaven who loves me and is helping me discover myself, helping me change, and continually counseling, and encouraging me. I am so blessed.

Book of Mormon, Alma 26:23

"23 Now do ye remember, my brethren, that we said unto our brethren in the land of Zarahemla, we go up to the land of Nephi, to preach unto our brethren, the Lamanites, and they laughed us to scorn?"

John Derek is having a hard time at school. He is very embarrassed by his inability to read well. We do special homework every night, different from what his class does. I then send a note to the teacher letting him know what we did that evening. Well John Derek is so ashamed that he hides the note under a piece of paper so no one will see that his homework is different. He also gets pulled out for reading several days a week. He is embarrassed every time he enters or leaves the class room. He feels that everyone is staring at him. Oh how my heart aches for my little boy. Oh how I wish I could take the burden away. But I know that reading is such an important skill and that he will learn it. He is a bright kid and will figure this out. It is just hard right now.

WE ARE EXPECTING BABY #5

Yes, you read it correctly. The Thornton Family is expecting a new baby in Dec. 2012. We are very excited. Today we made the announcement to our 4 children and I am sure that each of you heard their screams of excitement. Maddison immediately told us that it was going to be a boy but then after a few minutes decided that we need one boy and one girl. John Derek would like the baby to be a boy so that he can have a brother. Samantha would like the baby to sleep in her room. Elizabeth would like the baby to have brown hair so that more kids in the family would look like her. Then the conversation turned to names. Here are some of their favorites: Elizabeth wants: Sarah, Eva, Evelyn, or Eve, and if it is a boy Phineas or Ferb Samantha wants: Sam or Ammon John Derek wants: Johnny Maddison wants: Cinderella and Johnny So here we go. Taking on a new adventure of 5 children with faith that we are following our Father in Heaven's desires for our family. In this last conference Pres. P

Elizabeth

My darling Elizabeth is so wonderful. At Church I had the pleasure of talking to different people about the great girl she is. I was in the mother's room, feeding Michael, and talked to two other moms. We were discussing the joys and difficulties of raising children. I talked about how I couldn't do it without my Elizabeth. How she is my right hand. She is so good and stepping in and making breakfast or lunch. She loves to make pancakes with chocolate chips. She is great with Michael. I know that I can give him to her and he will be well taken care of. As soon as we pull into the garage she exclaims, "I'll get Michael!" then leaps out of the car and takes him out. I don't know what I would do without her. When Michael was first born and I was constantly feeding, sleeping, and trying to hold the house together she did so much. She was such a huge help. She is going to be a great mother some day. She is so good at talking to children and

Awards October 2014

My wonderful daughter Elizabeth is doing so great in school. She has a 4.0. Friday she received 3 awards at their quarterly award ceremony: High Honor Roll for having a 4.0, Outstanding Participation in her computer class, and the SPLASH award: S - Self Control, P - Pride, L - Leadership, A - Attitude, S - Safety, H - Honesty. What a great girl I have. I am so proud of her. She is a great daughter, she helps me so much. I could not be the mom I am today without her help.

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