Thoughts

Mormon 3:1

Even though there were ten years of peace Mormon knew what was going to happen and prepared for it. What do I need to prepare for? How about next time I get depressed, it will happen. What can I do now to make it less difficult? Freezer Meals, build up my kids so that they will not be as affected, teach them about depression. Increase my study and prayers Thai I can be strong during that time, learn to dismiss the lies of Satan.

Yesterday I read my patriarchal blessing. I have been wondering why I was sent to earth and this time, what is my purpose, what fills me when I am empty? My blessing says that I was sent to raise a righteous seed into our father and to prepare the earth fit the coming of the Savior. Then it says "You have a great mission here upon the earth." Is that my mission, raising my kids or is there something else also? I realized that I need to love myself. That when I am tempted to feel overwhelmed out put myself down I need to pray and the temptation will leave.

O have also been thinking about letting go of my anxiety and only focusing on two or three things and give myself permission that when something else comes up I can let it go and not feel guilty because I am not working on that right now. I am praying for guidance to know what to choose, but again in my reading yesterday I felt that I needed to focused on FHE and family scripture study. There two activities I have been promised will save all my children in the celestial kingdom. I am also thinking about flylady as the third. But that means I can let go of weight, eating, feeding healthy meals, all those nagging things because I already have something I am working on. And in 6 months or a year I can reevaluate. This thinking had already lifted my soul.

I need to put this in my flylady mantra so I can remember it daily.