Black Dog/Michael

The Black Dog is back. After 3 months of hardly any sign of him he came back. He started showing up a little last week and by yesterday and today he has taken over. Man it has been hard. I do have to say he isn't as strong as he was 6 months ago but he is trying.

This morning I curled up in my closet and cried (that's how I know he is here in full force.) My kids are trying not to let it bother them but he's not very nice. I am not sure what to do but wait until he has passed. I know he will and that is comforting.

I had felt prompted Tuesday to get a blessing but didn't so tonight I asked for one. In the blessing I was told to serve, to seek the Spirit, to eat good foods, and that I could find ways to exercise. I have been eating everything in sight and nothing good, and exercise has not existed since I broke my foot. I think the foot and the black dog are making it hard this time.

My sweet mom sent me a huge package several months ago with large manila envelopes for me to open when the black dog aproacehes. I had opened a couple and they contain an uplifting quote and a piece of clothing. A few weeks ago I wondered if I should just go ahead and open them thinking I wouldn't need them but . . . I have opened 2 and will probably open more. It is nice to read the quotes and feel my mom talking to me and helping remind me of why I am fighting and that the Lord is on my side.

I was downloading pictures off my camera and Michael happened to see this one up on the screen. He got so excited and wanted to see more pictures. He started naming everyone he knew in each shot. Then I came to this one and he jumped up and down and yelled, "Daddy, dats mine dad. I go see im?"

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