Touch and Tools

Tonight I was listening to "Enduring it Well" on the Mormon Channel, Episode 7 "One Step at a Time - Dale Hull."  Bro. Hall became paralyzed from a trampoline accident when he was an adult.  Two things that he said hit me today.  The first was that there are times that we are required to touch others, helping a child get dressed, disciplining, crossing the street, but the times that we voluntarily touch are the times that really let others know we love and care for them.  I hadn't ever thought of that before.  

Right now I am changing my depression medication and I don't have a lot of patience.  I am pretty crabby.  To me everything is about getting the job done and doing it right.  There is no middle ground only right and wrong.  Because of this there is very little touching and very little mom time.  Tonight John Derek came up to me and asked me how I was doing.  I asked him why he wanted to know.  He said that I am getting pretty mad all the time.  He wondered if it is because of my medication.  All I could do was hug him and tell him that I will try to not get so mad.  

The second thing that Bro. Hull said was that the Lord gave us the tools to help each of us with our individual trials.  This caused me to wonder what my tools are.  The first thing I thought of was my blog.  How I haven't written in it for a while.  I have sort of had scripture study but I really do best if I read my scriptures and write down what I learn and my feelings.  It is my way of providing the daily nutrition and exercise my Spirit needs.