Bunion Surgery/The Fall/Knowledge that God Loves You

Yesterday I had Bunion Surgery on my foot.  My feet have been bothering me for years.  They got pretty bad last year and then I broke my right foot in July.  After the break healed my bunion really started to act up and I had a very difficult time walking and doing daily activities.  It was also causing more problems with my feet and I truly feel it was the reason I broke my foot in the first place, I was not walking right.

Frustrated I asked Derek for a blessing in March.  In the blessing he said that I needed to head the words of my doctor.  I had been feeling for a while that I should have this bunion surgery done but just didn't want to do it.  My doctor had told me that bunion  surgery was an option if I wanted it.  I knew it would be at least 2 weeks of not driving so I called my sweet mom and asked if she could come out the end of March and help me out.  She reminded me that Christina was having a baby at the end of March so we scheduled it the beginning of May.  Knowing she would be here gave me a lot of peace.

Leading up the the surgery I have had a great sense of calm.  I have not worried and felt quite prepared.  As we drove to the surgery center early yesterday morning I began to be worried.  But I knew I would be okay.  When I laid on the surgery table I again started to worry.  But then I had the thought, "the angels will attend you."  I just repeated that line over and over in my head.  I prayed for angels and knew all would be well.  All was well.  It is so comforting to know that the Lord is looking out for me.

Fall of Adam

Author: Matthews, Robert J.

After the Fall, Adam and Eve were taught the gospel of Jesus Christ and rejoiced in their situation. Adam blessed God, saying, "Because of my transgression my eyes are opened, and in this life I shall have joy, and again in the flesh I shall see God" (Moses 5:10). And Eve was glad, saying, "Were it not for our transgression we never should have had seed, and never should have known good and evil, and the joy of our redemption, and the eternal life which God giveth unto all the obedient" (Moses 5:11).

The Fall was not an accident, not an obstruction to God's plan, and not a wrong turn in the course of humanity. "The Lord…created the earth that it should be inhabited" by his children (1 Ne. 17:36), and since Adam and Eve would have had no children in their Edenic condition, the Fall was a benefit to mankind. It was part of the Father's plan, being both foreknown to him and essential to the human family. All these things were "done in the wisdom of him who knoweth all things" (2 Ne. 2:24).

This was nice for me to read.  I have been wondering about the Fall, was it really part of God's plan.  But seeing it here written out that "it was not an accident," "not a wrong turn in the course of humanity," "not an obstruction of God's plan," was what I needed to read.  I still don't understand how Satan could be part of God's plan.  But I know that in time the answers will come as I continue to study.

Lately I have had this ever increasing feeling that I need to teach my children, especially my daughters that they are loved by their Heavenly Father.  I truly feel that if they knew this their self esteem would improve, they would find answers to some of the positions in the church, they would accept the role that Father in Heaven has for them.  If I did not know that God loved me I would not be where I am today.  That knowledge sustains me when questions of the priesthood come up.  That knowledge sustains me when the role I was asked to accept becomes difficult.  When I realize that this is not the life I had wanted but because I know my Heavenly Father loves me I know He would not ask it of me unless it was for my good.  My life could not be what it is without the knowledge that my Father in Heaven loves me.  I now need to learn how to teach this to my children.